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17 March 2010

dilemakah?

Hidup ini terlalu singkat sebenarnya.Namun, ia terasa panjang bila kita melakukan sesuatu sama ada ia seronok mahupun tidak,bermakna mahupun sia-sia.its depend on doer.Thats life.
Yesterday is history and tomorrow is mystery.Yes,yesterday is history.What have we done in the past was be a history and we cannot change it because we cannot change the past or rewind the time,yeah! Last year i have jumped into something.Something that important to the 'world'. n part of my survival.Perhaps.And today,i feel like,in dilemma.Truly.But,i know i should not feel like that.ooh god,what should i do.i cant tell it to anybody.but the fact,i felt like i have ruin the trust of somebody towards me.yeah.my family.what should i do? my fam said,i should do this,but i did.actually,i did not mean it.i jumped into it without my pleasure.my heart said no.my mind to.but at that time,i feel like that i have no choice.i have been trapped.thats what i think at that time.yeah i know,thats good to involve,but my family did not allowed me to do so when i'm studying. what should i do?silent,that what i doing now.ya Allah,guide me.get me off from this.
actually i love both.but,...i tried to tajdid my niah.i'm trying.lillah.but at the same time i feel like, i'm ruining my fam trust on me.what should i do ya Allah.astagfirullah hal'azim.guide me ya Allah.Allahumma amin,Allahumma amin,Allahumma amin.amin ya rabbal 'alamin.